MY STORY
CHASE FOR CHANGE
As far back as I can remember, I have always loved change. During my college years, I was changing apartments every year and spending my summers back home. While studying, I also started working as an English teacher at a language school. However, after graduating, I struggled to find a job at public school, so I decided to...start working at the corporation in Krakow, in the IT department. I was eager to try new things, work in English, and meet new people. At that time, I had not yet realized that my brain functioned differently than others'.
STARTING WORK ABROAD
Growing up, my mom made sure I was never late for school. As a result, as an adult, I always arrived at work ahead of time, and sometimes even exactly on time. When my corporate job in Krakow lost its appeal, I decided to go abroad and continue working in a corporation, this time in HR. This still provided the opportunity to change my environment and meet new people, which in turn motivated me to act. I wanted to avoid boredom. My initial plan was to "stay for a year, two at most, and then move to another country, find another job". Starting over in a new place was tough; I had to save money and I couldn't always afford to go out with people from the team. As I continued working in the corporation, my mental health slowly declined, and I felt increasingly alienated from my team. I've always been different from my peers, but I've never felt so lonely before. The job became monotonous and no longer brought me satisfaction. I'd had enough. However, the prevailing belief was that sick leave was only for those who were "physically" or "seriously" ill.
ISSUES AND CHALLENGES
The longer I worked in the corporate world, the more my mental health seemed to worsen, and I began to feel out of place in my team. I have always been different than my peers, but I had never felt this lonely before. My job was becoming monotonous and no longer satisfying. I'd had enough. However, it seemed like taking sick leave was only for physical issues, but I was struggling to talk to people and handle calls. That's when I realized I needed a change and a less stressful job. So, I switched teams and began working in HR as an administrator. We had a really great team that I am still friends with to this day. Initially, I was happy that things were finally changing. I was meeting new people and learning new things. The change was refreshing. I didn't feel so lonely anymore. Everyone was incredibly helpful and kind, and I learned so much during that period. We had a lot of work, but even the overtime did not bother me.
& ANOTHER CHANGE
After many years at the same company, I felt the need for change. Unexpectedly, the pandemic started, forcing everyone to work remotely. At first, it seemed great because I could sleep longer and didn't have to rush to get to work. But there were a lot of changes in our team – in management, processes and more. Even though I usually like changes, these ones were hard to manage. After a while, the isolation and lack of face-to-face interaction started to get to me. I wanted change so badly that everything else seemed more interesting than work.
DISCOVERING MY ORGANIZATION STYLE
Organizing items in my apartment has become quite interesting for me. This interest heightened when I discovered Cassandra Aarssen's Clutterbug brand. After taking her test on organizational styles, I learned that I'm a "Ladybug" or a macro-organizer. I like division into large categories, and I like to have them... hidden. Even if there's a mess within these categories, it remains "invisible" as long as it's tucked away. For instance, in the electronics category, the cables don't need to be neatly wound up, as long as they're in a box labeled "electronics", it's fine! I immediately implemented organizational methods tailored to my style and I've been a fan ever since. I've experimented with various methods to manage clutter, but this one has proven effective and has stuck with me till this day. This fascination with space organization has made me an "ADHD expert" in tidying up.
IS IT REALLY ADHD?
So, there was this one day where I stumbled upon a video. It was this girl sharing her journey of being diagnosed with ADHD. As she was talking, something just clicked. Bang! Then, I found another person sharing their life before they found out they had ADHD. And I was like, "Wow, this is exactly me!" I started digging deeper, and the more I read, the more it seemed to fit. I told my friends about it, but they were all, "everyone is a little ADHD", "you don't seem like the type", "ADHD? No way" and so on. But, I had this gut feeling that this might be it. So, I decided to see a specialist and shared everything I was going through. I was feeling lost, unhappy, and yet, discovering about ADHD, it felt like a turning point in my life.
COACHING
After a few months, I began my search for a new job and met with a Career Coach. She was an understanding and positive individual who suggested that I might be a great coach. She encouraged me to enroll in a coaching school. Meanwhile, we updated my CV, discussed potential career paths, and searched for jobs. When I began attending the coaching school, I felt a sense of belonging. My journey through coaching, ADHD diagnosis, the Clutterbug test, and finding a simple method to manage clutter led me to create my own personal brand.
DIAGNOSIS
My first diagnosis was "anxiety depression" but I requested an ADHD tests and received a referral. A few weeks and a couple of meetings later, the results were in - I have ADHD. And you know what? I felt a great relief! The confirmation was empowering, my intuition had been spot on.I gained clarity about my situation, leading to better self-awareness. I was not stuck anymore; I wasn't confused. I started learning about ADHD and became deeply interested in it. At work, after some time, I informed my manager about my diagnosis. He was understanding and very supportive. Unfortunately, after a year, the manager changed. The new person was not as understanding. I felt like I had been thrown into deep water and couldn't stay afloat. I heard that ADHD doesn't exist, that if "I'm sick, then I should go on sick leave," that "ADHD (and depression) is not an excuse," and that "I should try harder." Micro-management was introduced in the team, with every task and minute accounted for. That's when I decided to go on sick leave. I never returned to work in that corporation.
“I know everything happens for a reason. But sometimes I wish I knew what that reason was”
- Reeves Tony
I'm here to support people like me, who have faced judgment and misconceptions about ADHD. I aim to assist those who are seeking ways to organize their lives and spaces.
"Bee" is me, the Bee, cause Pszczoła in English means a bee, "Messy Organized” - refers to a flexible approach to organizing time and space, where the goal is to sort out even the greatest chaos, not perfectly, but in your own way. Leaving room for spontaneity and creativity.
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